Wondering why I bother.
I am stuck in a bit of a situation. I am having issues having so many liberal friends in Facebook. I am constantly getting bombarded with various slams on Conservatives, Republicans, Christians, and other general rants on how people who expect other people to carry their OWN weight are screwing up the world. Many of these people I have known for years and others I am even related to. So… It actually stings when they make their comments, because I “belong” in some semblance to the groups they are bashing. But if I say something about it, I have no sense of humor or I am unenlightened or even plain narrow minded. So, now I am torn. Do I take the abuse and be the “Salt and the Light” in this situation or do I distance myself from them? So, I started Googling about it…
Came up with 1 Corinthians 15:33 : Amplified Bible (AMP)
Do not be so deceived and misled! Evil companionships (communion, associations) corrupt and deprave good manners and morals and character.
So.. yeah… I feel like I have justification for distancing myself… I even feel that it say something to other places in my life.
I feel bad even thinking it.
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My head’s going to explode
It looks like we’re under attack again… this time it seems like it’s across multiple fronts with my family. My mom, my dad, and my kids… it’s spilling over into everything. I am frustrated and have been praying all day for the Lord to change me… for the Lord to carry me, and for the Lord to lead me. This feels so beyond me right now… Lord please carry me and my wife because we are overwhelmed and we are dependent on you… You are our breath of life… please Lord…
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When my ADD meets up with lack of sleep.
I am sitting at work… trying to get stuff done. Yet I am dragged off to two more meetings and now am sitting here spinning my wheels until it starts. Things around the office have been… stressed to say the least. Not going into details. (Well, not on line in a blog anyway. ) As such, this past week, I have developed a new “thing” called HEARTBURN. Being Mr. CastIronStomach has had its advantages for years. It looks like that cast iron stomach is starting to rust. Something here has got to give soon. I am hoping the stress level goes down soon. Started reading a book: A book about spiritual gifts. It’s been an interesting read.
Scratch forward a few hours. I’m amazed at how lately (the past few hours) when I go to start back to the project I was working on, I click on my browser. I need sleep bad. I haven’t had much sleep this week. So, I have been crabby… no… I have been a tool to my wife. I have apologized. She seems to think it’s her. Don’t get me wrong. Work has been stressful… kids have been stressful… I’m a bit beat and it’s making me not so easy to get along with. I own it.
Uhm… I am kind of drawing a blank.
As usual, I wanted to write some kick-butt post… but… yeah.. got nothn’.
Love ya.. talk at you later.
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Who are you?
My son, who are you becoming? For the first time in a while I wrestled with you. My you have become a stong, young man. You have a personality all your own. You are becoming your own man. Your little brother, in his own rite, is amazing, but th are something special. You have your moments where I want to knock your block off, but you are truly a a sight to behold. You have so much conflict in you, but you have such a big and strong heart. Son I love you. You are growing up so fast. I blinked and you leaped forward when I wasn’t looking. I have made,it a point to be there with and for you, but I feel like I have missed so much. I pray that your line will be honest and strong, all loving God with all their hearts. I am proud to be your dad.
My little dragon. Your sky is open. Spread your wings my son.
I love you.
T.A.S.
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On my face.
With as many things as I have going on in life, I found myself on my knees with my face on the floor praying in my prayer language. On my mind, I just kept saying Glory to God again and again. My verbal prayer going from urgent to despairation to almost pleading. I don’t understand a word of it. It feels good to pray in the spirit. The atmosphere of the whole room changes when I do. Then I feel spent emotionally. It’s hard ro describe, but it is so liberating.
Thank you God for your gifts and faithfulness.
~TAD
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A whole lot of “salt”.
So, I have and am inviting the Holy Spirit into all things. (Still trying to listen and follow). I have to say things are changing. My own spirit is lifted. I wont say I had fallen away, but I had slid a bit. I’ve dug in and am reaching for God in everything again. I always seem to screw things up when “I” try to manhandle things into place. Asking God to do it for me makes it all go smoother. I feel that I am getting back on track with work. It’s nice. Facebook doesn’t seem all that critical, even Wow’ing doesn’t seem all that important. I still do it, but it’s a if I have time thing. Yes, we’re talking over the past few days… and it takes at least 6 weeks to make a habit, but I feel good now. So in Christ, I live for today. Lord, I lay my day at your feet. I submit my worries to you… I submit my fears to you, and I submit my stress to you. I love you Lord.
~TAS
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Bump Bump..
I’ve been bumped a lot lately. It makes me really take not of what my friend Robert said this past Friday about inviting the Holy Spirit into the process of decision making. So far, I have contemplated changing careers, changing my eating habits, changing my sleep patterns. I’ve been bumped on my work ethic, my desires, my needs, my entertainment, how much I FaceBook… a whole bunch of stuff. A real huge bump came today when someone I used to work with asked me for help… and I have been avoiding it because I felt I need to tell him some things that are hard to hear. Well… I said them. It may end the friendship. It may grow the friendship. Only the Lord knows how this will turn out. I lay it at God’s feet. I said what was in my heart as gently as I could. I sent my wife a copy of what I sent him… and then she bumped me on what I said.
If I am to preach it, I should do a better job of living it. So… yeah…
Lord, I lay my life at your feet. I am nothing without you lifting me up. I humble myself to your will and I ask that you send the Holy Spirit to guide my steps, my tongue, and live through me. I ask Lord, to be your hands and feet and do you will.
In the mighty name of Jesus, I pray.
~The Ascended Dragon
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USA UP! All Night!
Oh Rhonda how I miss your perkiness and bad b movies. Have me sum insomnia going on. Work has been killer the past few days. Funny thing is? I LOVE outages. I love fixing things… Well at least until I run out of energy and want to pass out. There is a bit of a rush I guess. Kinda like it. That being said, it has really jacked my sleep schedule. Hoping blogging will help me get it out.
Side note. Not too sure if I like playing alliance. Horde players just seem more hard core. I will say though that tanks on both sides are still just as douchebaggy in general. They seem to think that because they tank, its an excuse to be rude and ill mannered. It’s nice to run with a good one.
Sitting in front of a computer has gotten old for the first time in a while. Today I just wanted to unplug completely. That’s odd for me.
I miss haning out with people. Life has just been so busy lately.
Prayed for a long time tonight in many random directions. It was odd. Good to have a running conversation with God, but I just seemed to ramble on. I am thankful that God is patient with me. 
Going to try shutting my eyes now. Love ya. Nini!
TAS
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Rhino Hide?
I’m frustrated. I’ve watched sisters fight. See it day in and day out. One of them doesn’t have the thick skin she says and thinks she has. Sometimes sisters say things out of love and concern that isn’t taken well by the other and they get “all butt-hurt” about it. Then they cross their arms and get all huffy. Again, I see this day in and day out. Sisters are funny that way. Then they argue and tell each other off and stay angry. Sometimes they get over it, sometimes they work it out, sometimes they grow from it, sometimes they just hold a grudge and threaten never to speak to each other again.
Again, sisters are funny that way. As a dad of sisters, step, adopted, and biological… It’s an interesting perspective, watching them all quarrel. Sometimes its funny to watch the spats, because they are so pointless, then there are other times it just breaks your heart and you want to take the sisters and beat them both until they get along. As a dad, it’s just something you can’t force. Sisters are funny that way. Brothers just hit each other, grunt, or just shrug and get over it…. Sisters? They’re just funny that way.
Sometimes I wish they weren’t so funny that way…. The house seems “off” when sisters quarrel. But what can you do? You just love them through it and pray that God will step in and soften hearts. Because at the end of the day, they are still sisters, no matter how mad they get at each other. God made them and put them together.
~The Ascended Dragon
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The “Why” of it all.
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