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Americas children in danger.

Wednesday, April 29th, 2015

I may tick some people off. I may have some agree with me… What this is an opinion and I as you are entitled to one:

What we need from our law makers is not more laws, or spending, or anything like that. We need sanity… law review, and a return to traditional values. Most importantly, we need to empower parents in the raising of their children. As a parent, I had a very healthy fear as my children grew older of the random nutjob calling CPS for me trying to discipline my children. I think, for the most part I did Ok. I had some big wins and some big fails… But that being said… It was always a thought in back of my mind…. Will someone see what I am doing and freak?

This ties the hands of parents… especially with "problem" children… Will there be abuse? Yes, and no law or CPS will stop it. Will a child feel picked on by their parents? Yes… I felt like I was.. but my mother was trying to make up for my father not really being a disciplinarian and then not being there… She did her best… And trust me… the woman never gave a thought to CPS when she grabbed the handiest thing to beat my butt with. I wasn't a bad kid… I was a lazy kid with a big mouth… (Not much has changed either). I really didn't get in trouble doing bad things… I got in trouble doing dumb things… or running my mouth… I was in 1 fight in school… Mr. Randy Johnson… Someone said I was "Talking about his Mama." which, looking back on it now was freaking funny, because I hardly knew the dude.. Never had a problem with him… I wonder what happened to him? Anyway… I digress..

"Parents" today are expected to deal with their kids, amid a barrage of influences outside the home…. All while, having God pulled out of school, being forced to drink this "everyone is special, everyone wins, don't hurt your feelings" kool-aid, violence and sex everywhere… and more and more people letting their children run wild… and parents wanting to just be friends… These are not your friends… these are spoiled brats with a "entitlement" mindset… They have no concept of working for your dinner.

We need to pull back on the "government knows best" reins… and give the power back to the parents. Not only that, hold parents accountable until their children are of age.

Empower the parents people… Support true morality… Support Prayer in schools… and expect more from our children. God gave you these gifts, and like any gift from God, they can be perverted and used for evil.

God bless parents that stand for their children… by standing in the way of their children making bad decisions.


Saturday, April 18th, 2015

So my wife has been losing a bunch of weight… So much so, that she honestly looks 10 years younger… I never noticed her being a larger woman… until she wasn't anymore.  I loved her and found her sexy exactly the size she was…  And now, as the weight is falling off of her… She just looks to be more amazing every time my eyes catch her.

I just edited this, where I took out the parts that would be TMI and things that would make the super sexy wife beat me.  The most wild part of this is that I now have a new fettish I think…. and that is grabbing her belly skin.  I can't keep my freaking hands off of it… 

Ok… I get it… too much info… but something else changed this week…  She got her hair cut.  I love her in long hair… but whoever cut her hair did it in a way that honestly took another 5 years off…. She looks… glamourous… When I look at her… I swear my heart skips a beat and I just get all giggly.  What the hell is up with that?

But it's still the same thing… the woman cannot take a compliment…  and when she puts herself down or doesn't give a favorable reaction to my compliment… we sometimes fight about it because I get so pissed.  My wife is amazing… God is making changes in her that I adore and love… My wife is so beautiful… her eyes when she looks at me are saphires… blue blazing saphires and her lips… just ache for me to kiss.  She has a smile that is electrifying… and I just want to kiss her all the time.


So I am about to post this… and my wife is laying in bed next to me…  I expect she is going to bean me for posting the whole fettish thing… but I don't care… I love my wife and I love what she is doing… I think she looks amazing and I love the way she looks at me.



When things change

Monday, March 2nd, 2015

So…  things… yeah them there things …  they change sometimes. 

With my wife, its been a dramatic shift in her weight.  Shift for the better.  I am not going into the hows or whys… just that it is what it is.  The other day.. I was laying in bed with her and she held up her arm to hold my hand and I  noticed that her arm was much thinner.  I first notice my weight loss in my arms, so seeing this in my wife made it more real for me.

That being said… I have always thought that my wife was beautiful and sexy… because she was.  She never believed me… and still doesnt.  But this weight loss makes her look 15 to 20 years younger.  Looking at the pictures of her… she looks younger now than when I  met her.   This is not the same woman…  but it is… and I am so amazed in her changes but fortunately, the old heavier her, in her pictures still takes my breath away. 

That means only one thing.  God meant for us to be together heavy or thin… she is more beautiful each time I look at her.  This woman who can in an instant, drive me insane, can make me happier than I  have ever been. 

She is my partner, best friend, lover, wife, mother of my brood, and soul mate. 

My heart is hers and I praise the Lord that i can call her my wife.

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Thursday, March 21st, 2013

There are days I swear that I’m bipolar… Not that I am… But the dumbest things can just cause my day to crash…


Today it was no dinner being made, the youngest son apparently throwing a 12 year old tantrum, and then the backup dinner I had planned on having was taken out by 3 snacking children.  I lost my shiznit and stormed out of the house after bursting in my room where my wife was laying down… She didn’t feel good… I grumped in her general direction, grabbed my coat and left.  I was going to go to BK or something but ended up going to the grocery store.  Me… angry shopping… because I was whiney and hungry… Yeah… I felt like a jerk… This was NOT the way Jesus had intended us to love each other….  So.. yeah… I got some fried chicken from the deli and some other stuff we needed and came home.  It was guitar lesson night…


My instructor came in and gave me some really great news in his life, and as I was starting to high five him he gave me some very bad news…. and I swear I just sank.  It’s his personal news… no need to share it here.  I felt so bad for him.  I offered to pray for him, pith him… I just threw myself at trying to help him out… He was good… But tonight, instead of being laid back… it was “business” then he needed to go.


So now he’s gone… and I’m sitting here… Sad.  Very sad…. for him.  I don’t think he has a relationship with Jesus.  With what he’s going through… that’s sad.


He’s a good guy and I like him.


Too much running though my right now…  I will get to see my other friends tomorrow.  I need to come up with more nicknames for them… There are so many… and I don’t want to use their real names here… That’s just how I roll…


Soooo Middle Earth…

Thursday, March 21st, 2013

So “The Hobbit” came home yesterday from the grocery store… and for the first time in a long while we sat down as a family to watch a movie.  Lights were off, volume was turned up… Nachos were had… Life seemed pretty darn good.  I even managed to sneak in a VMWare tools upgrade in for one of my company’s clients.  All from the comfort of my living room.  I even told my boss yesterday that I was going to sleep in today which he was completely cool with… Yeah… I was going to communicate this to my wife, but she has NOT been feeling well and she didn’t sleep for squat the night before.  So I dragged myself out of bed, to find that my youngest son, who was woken up 3 times had missed his bus because he kept going back to sleep.  I don’t know why that ticks me off so bad.  It throws my morning way off.  He gets in trouble and he doesn’t seem to care.  He has an alarm, people wake him up… he goes back to bed.




This is the same kid, that prays with authority when we pray as a family.  The boy has an anointing..  He’s just… I can’t explain it… The kid is just belligerent chaos…  I pray for him all the time… that he finds his way… I don’t get it.

No new dreams last night… I was out cold.


Uhhh… It’s still early in my day…   I have more to ramble on about… Most of it centered around my music.  TTYL




Take that Friday Night!!!

Saturday, March 2nd, 2013

I got to spend an evening with the oldest son. Got to talk about Sex, Drugs, and Rock & Roll… Ok, we didn’t talk about drugs… but everything else was fair game. Spent the evening with him… just chilling out.. We went to dinner at Cat on a Stick – 2… then drove around looking for guitar shops that would be open. Ended up at Guitar Center last night… Spent time dreaming and looking… Since EWagz is a south paw, we looked around and low and behold… a Lefty Epiphone Less Paul… I thought he was going to crawl out of his skin… The boy doesn’t get excited about much… and well… he was drooling… I so loved connecting with him… I mean it went down the usual road… me doing 90% of the talking, asking him questions to get anything out of him… but when he saw that guitar? He wouldn’t shut up.

As a dad, it makes it hard some times to not just spend all my money trying to bring smiles to their faces… But I know, from experience that if he doesn’t earn it, he won’t keep the interest….

Which is why I pay for my guitar lessons.

Man Date = Success.

Cap'n EWagz A boy and his axe.

Been praying….

Monday, April 9th, 2012

I have been praying on something lately… praying pretty hard… I haven’t gotten into the middle of anything.. haven’t fired any shots across anyone’s bow… but today, I was moved to send a text.. with the word “Mercy” to people in my family. I asked them to pray on it….

I have invested my blood, sweat, tears, prayers, time, and a big piece of my heart for almost 6 years… I have cried with, laughed with, journeyed with, held up, been held up by, supported, yelled at, been yelled at.. staggered, farted, lived real life with… for almost 6 years. I don’t think I have ever been closer to another man or woman other than my wife and children… And it honestly hurts me that this has gone away. When I said that she was my second (Plulonic) wife, I never really knew how true that statement was… when I refer to him as my brother… I really took that for granted too… until that was severed… I so desperately want that connection back…

So, I said today what I had to say… My heart is broken… and well… so is my wife’s. I have held my wife, night after night… her crying and hurt… her sister has cut her off…

I won’t get into what went on, because honestly, it’s not important to me. What is important is that there are two families that have so much history.. so much more than most people could fathom… who just were “done”.

My head just hurts, my heart aches, and this is the first time I am just sitting and really letting out how I feel about it. I am not going to confront, I am not going to belittle, I am not going to say “You should or shouldn’t” or point fingers.. because frankly I don’t care… My only advice here is to two people: You need to sit down, and have the heart to heart you two always said you could can have, not over a text or chat or email… but face to face, having an “ugly cry” with no walls, no accusations, no bullshit, no false front, no expectations, and most of all no holding back.  Then, AFTER THAT, if you chose to walk away from what we had, then walk away in agreement with a clear conscience.

It’s time to be real again… I don’t do good pretending people I LOVE don’t exist and I don’t do well when people pretend I don’t exist.

~The Ascended Dragon

The Ride

Friday, February 3rd, 2012

My head’s going to explode

Monday, December 5th, 2011

It looks like we’re under attack again… this time it seems like it’s across multiple fronts with my family.  My mom, my dad, and my kids… it’s spilling over into everything.  I am frustrated and have been praying all day for the Lord to change me… for the Lord to carry me, and for the Lord to lead me.  This feels so beyond me right now… Lord please carry me and my wife because we are overwhelmed and we are dependent on you… You are our breath of life… please Lord…