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Americas children in danger.

Wednesday, April 29th, 2015

I may tick some people off. I may have some agree with me… What this is an opinion and I as you are entitled to one:

What we need from our law makers is not more laws, or spending, or anything like that. We need sanity… law review, and a return to traditional values. Most importantly, we need to empower parents in the raising of their children. As a parent, I had a very healthy fear as my children grew older of the random nutjob calling CPS for me trying to discipline my children. I think, for the most part I did Ok. I had some big wins and some big fails… But that being said… It was always a thought in back of my mind…. Will someone see what I am doing and freak?

This ties the hands of parents… especially with "problem" children… Will there be abuse? Yes, and no law or CPS will stop it. Will a child feel picked on by their parents? Yes… I felt like I was.. but my mother was trying to make up for my father not really being a disciplinarian and then not being there… She did her best… And trust me… the woman never gave a thought to CPS when she grabbed the handiest thing to beat my butt with. I wasn't a bad kid… I was a lazy kid with a big mouth… (Not much has changed either). I really didn't get in trouble doing bad things… I got in trouble doing dumb things… or running my mouth… I was in 1 fight in school… Mr. Randy Johnson… Someone said I was "Talking about his Mama." which, looking back on it now was freaking funny, because I hardly knew the dude.. Never had a problem with him… I wonder what happened to him? Anyway… I digress..

"Parents" today are expected to deal with their kids, amid a barrage of influences outside the home…. All while, having God pulled out of school, being forced to drink this "everyone is special, everyone wins, don't hurt your feelings" kool-aid, violence and sex everywhere… and more and more people letting their children run wild… and parents wanting to just be friends… These are not your friends… these are spoiled brats with a "entitlement" mindset… They have no concept of working for your dinner.

We need to pull back on the "government knows best" reins… and give the power back to the parents. Not only that, hold parents accountable until their children are of age.

Empower the parents people… Support true morality… Support Prayer in schools… and expect more from our children. God gave you these gifts, and like any gift from God, they can be perverted and used for evil.

God bless parents that stand for their children… by standing in the way of their children making bad decisions.

My heart today.

Wednesday, July 17th, 2013

I have been keeping up on the Zimmerman trial, the virdict that came out, the insuing riots and demonstrations… I look at the outing of the TWA Flight 800 coverup… all the scandals in Washington… even my own postings about The Atourney General – Eric Holder, and other random moments of me speaking out… 

I have to remind myself… God has a plan… 

God is in complete control.  

That being said, I've been listening to a surmon from Joel Osteen and it has really inspired me.

I thank God that He has me in the palm of His hand.I thank God that no weapon formed against me will ever prosper.

Hebrews 1:14 (NIV) – "Are not all angels ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation?"

I am going to stand in faith… The Lord has me… I will walk with Him… I will believe that He is my salvation… 

Hebrews 4:12 (NIV) – 12 For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.

I am going to believe that God is protecting me… I am going to believe that God is helping me… 

Philippians 4:13 (NIV) – 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.


I stand in faith that I have your favor.

Psalm 5:12 (NIV) – Surely, Lord, you bless the righteous;
    you surround them with your favor as with a shield.


So I stand in that…. and I stand with what I feel the Lord is telling me.

Son, it's time to take the first steps.  Believe son, you can do it for I am with you.

Now what that means?  I'm not sure.  But I will pray into it… I have so many things I am looking at doing…  Do I spin a wheel?  Do I guess?  Well, If I pick the wrong thing of the things I am looking at… the first steps are small on all of them… I will be safe.

Lets rock!

Reflections and Ramen

Thursday, July 4th, 2013

I keep trying to write an intro that shows how I am not trying to sound so high and mighty.  So i just got hung up on how I shouldn't sound… Silly huh?


So here we go;


I am sitting here after a long On-Call week at work contemplating many things…  I am watching the Arab Spring become the Arab Summer.  I see our government riddled with mass corruption… I see a once great American culture, sucking the hind tit of a equally corrupt and spineless liberal media and being happily oblivious.  I feel that this is all too obvious, and there are people out there defending it… I am completely blown away. Lets face it, our POTUS is diligently working to dismantle this nation, and the liberal media is right on board the gravy train… Now I don't know if that's because they have been bullied into it… but I remember a time, not so long ago.. that our media ad "journalistic integrity".   It's a pathetic joke now… There are a few news agencies that try, but they are now targeted by our administration… 


So yeah… On this country's independence day, I am wishing that the Lord would come fix everything… 


So as I smell my ramen cooking in the kitchen, I contemplate where this world… this great nation of ours is going.  I ponder the meaning of life and my mind jumps around thinking about the future of our country, how good my ramen smells, the 2nd amendment, stockpiling food… aquaponics, and whether or not I can get through the next 90 minutes without getting a call from work….


I know that God has a plan.  I know that what is happening is supposed to happen… His ways are not our ways, and that I know… at the end of the day, Jesus has me in his arms.  The Father has me on His lap and I am snuggled in deep.  My hope, my faith, my trust… is all within You Lord.  I know that everything will be alright… and that God made ramen just for me.


Thank You Jesus.

Why do I do this to myself?

Wednesday, May 29th, 2013

I keep getting myself more and more worked up the more I find out about what has been happening with Benghazi, with the IRS, with the EPA, and now even the raid on Gibson Guitars.  It has gotten to the point where I get worked up into a real frenzy.

I tweeted and retweeted a bunch of posts about Impeaching President Obama.  Though I agree that he should be impeached, I am a little ashamed that I posted so much stuff…  I fear that I am spewing the same junk that I have been angry about coming from the other side…  just with a different spin on it.  Facebook for me has changed from being about connecting with friends and family to being about following the joke that Washington has become and posting political rants.


I have been wasting time…. or have I?  What is my anti-President Obama rants got me?  Personally… Nothing.  Do I hope to raise awareness?  Yes.  Will I change anyone’s mind?  I hope so, but I doubt it.  I am using it as a launching pad for my anger against our POTUS.  All my friends and family see me spouting and running my mouth.  It’s only spreading hatred.  It’s not really doing any good.  I have to move away from it.  By the end of the day, I’m flustered and feel helpless.


That is not what God wants from me.  God wants me to place my faith in Him.  He wants me to pray.  He wants me on my face, praying for our country, praying for our leaders, and praying for the truth to be revealed.


I am sad that things are the way they are, but I will place my faith in Jesus that God has a plan…  Though I don’t know what it is…

The brand of “The Black Sage”

Thursday, April 18th, 2013

So, I have been talking to the wife about “changing the world”, I have asked in prayer about what I am supposed to be doing… I have again, just now asked the Lord what he wants me to do… I have had a feeling that something was coming.

Last week, I had a complete stranger end up with my business card. At first, when she called, I thought she was a recruiter.. Trying to get a summary of my skills for a job… As it turns out she was just a person in need of help.  I believe that God has made a divine appointment here.

So I help her by doing some data collection, and send some emails trying to assess her need, and state of her now defunct web-site.  It’s gone, all the info that she had in it is gone… It never went live because she said that it wasn’t in God’s timing.  So I give her all the information that I have and what I know…  The site’s dead, no backups were made..  Gone.

Fast forward to yesterday… My new friend calls me up to talk about options… so I offer to host the site, set up a blog for her to use and support her the best I can.  I am NO web developer.  I am NO coder.  I am just a guy with a hosting plan, server knowledge, and a base understanding of WordPress.  I lay it all out on the table for her… and she wants to go with me.  Heck, I’m free and I want her to be successful… I want this site to be successful… I am excited about this…

This could be how I help _directly_ change the world.. this could be how I _directly_ help others… this could be how I _directly_ spread the love of Christ to those who need it most.

So it got me back to thinking about “The Black Sage” brand.  Because I’m starting to realize that if you facebook, twitter, blog, email, communicate to the world as a name, and for me that is “The Black Sage” then you have a brand.  A bona fide  brand that you have to protect in some way.  You have to be consistent.  You have to project that to each media stream…

So then it comes down to this question:  Do I do this for His glory or mine?

That being said… I choose for His glory.  I choose to have an on-line presence that has scripture at it’s core.  I chose to have an on-line presence with Christ at the helm.

I make this declaration that Jesus is the Lord of my life.  I declare that my media streaming output will do it’s best to align with scripture.  If I fail at that, I declare to try and make it right if I am called on it.

So today I launch “The Black Sage” brand.  Today I do it for His glory, not mine.




Thursday, March 21st, 2013

There are days I swear that I’m bipolar… Not that I am… But the dumbest things can just cause my day to crash…


Today it was no dinner being made, the youngest son apparently throwing a 12 year old tantrum, and then the backup dinner I had planned on having was taken out by 3 snacking children.  I lost my shiznit and stormed out of the house after bursting in my room where my wife was laying down… She didn’t feel good… I grumped in her general direction, grabbed my coat and left.  I was going to go to BK or something but ended up going to the grocery store.  Me… angry shopping… because I was whiney and hungry… Yeah… I felt like a jerk… This was NOT the way Jesus had intended us to love each other….  So.. yeah… I got some fried chicken from the deli and some other stuff we needed and came home.  It was guitar lesson night…


My instructor came in and gave me some really great news in his life, and as I was starting to high five him he gave me some very bad news…. and I swear I just sank.  It’s his personal news… no need to share it here.  I felt so bad for him.  I offered to pray for him, pith him… I just threw myself at trying to help him out… He was good… But tonight, instead of being laid back… it was “business” then he needed to go.


So now he’s gone… and I’m sitting here… Sad.  Very sad…. for him.  I don’t think he has a relationship with Jesus.  With what he’s going through… that’s sad.


He’s a good guy and I like him.


Too much running though my right now…  I will get to see my other friends tomorrow.  I need to come up with more nicknames for them… There are so many… and I don’t want to use their real names here… That’s just how I roll…


Wednesday, March 20th, 2013

Apparently, I have an audience.

Well hello there!

Well hello there!

Not that I was trying to have an audience… but hey… I guess since it’s posted on the interwebs, it’s going to be viewed by SOMEONE… I should have known better.  With the throngs of groupies that I have already… someone was bound to read the blog I really haven’t posted to in almost a year.

Why have I moved here you asked?

It’s simple.  If I go off on a rant on FacePage, at least 400+ people (or whatever my friend count it) will see it.  Some of them are co-workers, some of them are former co-workers, a lot of them are people I went to high school with that just clicked on my name because they remembered it.  Heck, I even have friends like that.  The point is… Few people on FacePage are invested in me.  I use this as my personal journal of things I want to go back and look at.  I guess I could use my livejournal account.. That goes back to… 2002 I think?  That’s very much BC…. That’s fun just trying to remember how that went…  I went back and looked at some of those posts… I swear I was insane when I posted them…. Looking at that time in my life, I had to have been.  No blog wars, no friend drama, no ex-wife drama, no real kid drama, no financial drama, no work drama…

Holy Crap… God, what have you done?  I just realized that MY drama has dropped to next to nothing.  The people I choose to surround myself with… don’t come with drama…  They come with wine and cheese, hugs, stability, honesty, and a desire to lift up those around them.  That’s not commentary against anyone… that is commentary FOR some friends.

4 of the 5... We miss you Cheesecake.

4 of the 5… We miss you Cheesecake.

Thank you God.



Happy Birthday Beans

Monday, March 18th, 2013

4 years ago today, I watched my wife, get rushed out of the delivery room into emergency surgery as her life and the life of my daughter started to slip away. As I was held back by the nurses, I just wanted to go with, but they wouldn’t let me out of the room. I remember being so frantic I just started to dance… Not anything cute.. just shuffling my feet… It wasn’t out of happiness, but out of nervousness. When they finally let me out, they handed me a bunny suit that was way too small and told me if I wanted in the room with her I had to wear it. Ever see a fat man put on a yellow paper bunny suit that was too small? Comical if I wasn’t freaked out.

So they sat me right outside the operating room door where I could see in. I could see them working on my wife. I remember seeing Chloe being pulled out, blue and her immediately start crying. I remember saying. “That’s one. Now for the other one.” Then they let me in the room as they were closing on my wife. I immediately went to Chloe and after they said it was ok, I scooped her up and only put her down when they had to do something with her. I never left her side. My wife went into the recovery room and Chloe and I went into the nursery.

Chloe only left my site for 15 seconds as they took her weight and some blood, in a room with no other exits except past me. That kid wasn’t going anywhere. Then I remember them telling me that my wife was waking up and took Chloe to go meet her mommy. I almost lost my wife and my daughter in one swoop. God was there, though I didn’t realize it at the time. God knew what was coming though I didn’t  God made my daughter, despite the odds, perfect. No jaundice, not damaged, not anything but perfect. The pediatrician, came in, astounded… and said that. “She is perfect”. And after 4 years, I couldn’t agree more. She has had several nick names over the years… The one that stuck was Baby Beans… and now she is my Beansie… I am in love with my daughter and I know that God has something awesome planned for her. I am in awe of how he protected her and my wife when all signs said they should have both died.

Thank you God and Happy 4th Birthday to my Beansie.



It started as a post named: “Juuuust kinda pissed off.”

Thursday, March 14th, 2013

Today is starting to be a very cranky day.

*record scratch*

In the name of Jesus, I take control of this day and redirect it to be positive.  I release control of my life to Christ Jesus, I release my anger and lay it at God’s feet, and I pray the the Holy Spirit fill me.  I make this announcement to the enemy.  You do not own me.  My ransom was paid.

My heart, soul, body, and spirit were bought and paid for by Christ Jesus.

Today is the day…

Thursday, February 28th, 2013

Today my daughter takes her first steps into the world outside of the good old U.S. of A. She is claiming ground for the Kingdom of God. In just 2ish short hours, she will be boarding a plane headed for Nicaragua. Going there to assist kids in their sports program.

I had been praying for a while on a blessing to present to her. As her adopted/step/whatever I am-father to this kid, going on 9 years… I believe that she was under my covering. She started coming out from under it… and today I released her for her own mantle of Godly authority. She is standing on the Rock, and taking ground. She will be a prayer warrior, leading people to Christ, in unique ways. She is and will continue to be a strong Godly woman. She walks in God’s light, keeping her eyes on him… and as I blessed her mother, her descendants for generations will be shaped by her choices and will not even know it… The man that the Lord chooses for her will be strong in the Lord and will lead her family as a man of God….

This is the blessing upon my daughter… I speak abundant provision over my daughter so that she can be an abundant giver.

This I speak in the name of Jesus.