Whats up doc (or nurse practicioner)

February 27th, 2015

So..  I am a refugee from the war between CHI and BCBS of Nebraska…  Im sitting in the waiting room because i was trying to wait it out, hoping they would sign some sort of truce and i could get back to the doctor I have had for 9 years…

Oh now im back in the room entertaining the nurse…   I had a theme and a point but… its gone.  Happy friday.


February 25th, 2015

I went back and read some of my old posts… Holy crap…  I can really write well…  sometimes.  Not now… its 1:25am..  I should  be asleep…  Soo much on my mind.

Kick it’s ass man!

February 24th, 2015

So I have a confession to make…

I feel very combative today.  I would dare say that I feel downright belligerent.  I feel frustrated with the world, my job, my kids, the state of the union, and my career.  Wife and I are doing good.  As such, in writing this, I am also seeking God’s face in this because I want that walk to be solid. 

Also… I am realizing that I am just pissed off enough about people talking things to death… Shut the hell up and get off your butts and DO something about it.

That feeling you get….

January 14th, 2015

So I had a conversation today that really set me off.  I was mad, I was angry and I swore up and down I hadn't been mad like this in a long while… 

How long you ask?  I was thinking 5 years… So I run and grab lunch, feeling oh-so-antisocial and eat it at my desk alone antisocoally.  So I go to my blog to write about it all and my blog needs to be updated… So I update my blog then I geet a meeting reminder…

So, I am getting ready to go to a meeting and I get a call that my daughter's car just died.  The car that I purchased 12 years ago off the lot with 12 miles on it and I got even more mad… I couldn't believe how mad I was… and I was going to write a post on how mad and how full of rage I was and and and… 


On my way to grab my antisocial Subway sandwich I prayed that Jesus take my anger and my rage over feeling slighted…. Before I got the call from my daughter.

By the time my meeting that I went to at noon was over, I sat back down at my desk to write about how angry… blah blah blah…  It's just not important.   Understand that I got very spun up and wanted to go all Hulk-Smash… and well.. it went away…  

So, I thank God that he answeres prayers.




Getting to be more like what I think it is…

November 19th, 2014

So I'm zipping through Facepage again and I run across this article posted on a Canada Free Press… and this little blurb about Ferguson catches my attention…

"The ABC News report says: 'The FBI assesses those infiltrating and exploiting otherwise legitimate public demonstrations with the intent to incite and engage in violence could be armed with bladed weapons or firearms, equipped with tactical gear/gas masks, or bulletproof vests to mitigate law enforcement measures.”

The FBI also warns that electrical facilities, water treatment plants, and computer networks could be attacked by groups such as “Anonymous.”

So it looks like some of the agitators could be “militarized” themselves, and may in fact be part of an international plot.'

Wait… what?



I hope its not as dismal as I think it is…

November 17th, 2014

So… I am going to talk about Ferguson Missouri, my thoughts on what I’ve read, my feeling on the whole deal.  So.. I may be wrong.. I may have my facts completely backasswords… but it is what it is….  I wanted to post this out someplace… Someplace that I could go back to, to see if I had anything right.


So I hear that the Governor of Missouri is calling out the National Guard in a state of emergency in preparation for the Michael Brown/Darren Wilson verdict.  Thug versus cop.  The dude that was high, a known criminal and who had just committed a crime and who assaulted an officer of the law versus a man who had sworn to uphold the law.


I wasn’t there… I can’t say what EXACTLY what happened… but from the evidence of the medical examiner, it seems to corroborate Darren Wilson’s story.  What I see happening, is a community of the have little’s feeling downtrodden… and being “empowered” by entitlement.  Crime and gangs are running rampant… and because of the entitlement attitude, they have no respect for authority…  So when challenged, they attack… They choose poorly, and get butt-hurt when they get smacked down by the law.  They lie, they cheat and cry racism or police over-reach… or power trip…

I have this crazy idea… How about instead, we work hard for our future instead of either expecting someone else to foot the bill or… well… being “entitled”.  Why should anyone work, when hard working men and women pay the bills?  Well, in my opinion, it makes an entire generation of lazy, people who milk the system.  I’m rambling…


Where am I going with this?


Believe it or not, it is more a fear of the government…  Wait, what?


Yep… Government… I am fearing that this is going to end up a few ways… The state of emergency may turn into a state of martial law… American’s rights could be trampled… and with the “pot stirrers” and race baiters on site to get the masses frothing at the mouth.. I am afraid that this is going to end poorly.


I am worried that this is going to touch off a full blown revolution… How you ask?  If the state of Missouri issues martial law, that means that the rights guaranteed by the Constitution of the United States will be trampled as “order” is attempting to be restored in Ferguson…. If the National Guard starts shooting, you COULD have people taking up arms to protect themselves… and things could escalate quickly. 


It is no secret that I am a Tea Party Conservative… I believe in working hard to get where you want to be… and that our Constitutional Rights, were given to us by God, not man.  If martial law is issued… The government can just take your guns… they can strip you of your 1st amendment rights… they can strip you of your second amendment rights… and just keep going down the line… Media can be shut down… or “blacked out”… 


I am not having a positive feeling here… It’s honestly scary… if you think about it…  This could spill out of Ferguson… it could spill into St. Louis… and then spread like cancer from there….  I could be pessimistic… I could be a negative Nancy..  I honestly pray to Jesus that I am wrong…  But with as polarized we are as a country… and with how fed up everyone is…. And with that a… With our current president willing to completely screw everything with executive order… in direct contrast with the will of the people he vowed to serve… then… well… I hope you can understand why I would feel less that optimistic about the future….


Conservatism – The Sleeping Giant Part 1

April 8th, 2014

I typically don’t link to my blog from social media sources, but I feel pretty strongly about some things that twitter and facebook really don’t do a good job at letting me communicate my feelings well.  That being said: on to what’s on my mind.


For some time now, I have been watching things change in this country.  When I was growing up, you had the “common sense” liberals, the “common sense” conservatives and the ground in the middle all battling over what was and was not decent.   It was a little cleavage or leg here… maybe a see through top there… and God forbid someone actually cusses on television…  The whole world was in an uproar.  Somehow, from about 88-93.. yeah… within 5 years, that became normal and acceptable.  The homosexual community was relegated to San Francisco, New York, and other key pockets… They were not the norm, they were the novelty..  It was thought to be kind of intertaining to have a “gay friend” or a “gay relative”.  It wasn’t bad… you could say, “Not my thing, but whatever.”  And you were ok.  It seemed that they knew that what they were doing was wrong, but they didn’t care.  They felt like that’s just how they were and accept or don’t, they were who they chose to be. 

I wasn’t forced into sensitivity training for not agreeing with them, I wasn’t prosecuted for not paying attention to them.  I let them live, they let me live… no big deal.  It was toward the end of the Cold War and looking back, it seemed the country had bigger fish to fry.  We had to keep on our toes because the Russians seemed to have their hands in everything in direct opposition to what we did.  Our leadership was concerned with our place in the world and the protection of our people, our interests, and our borders. 

Then the wall came down and that started to change things in the world.  We watched on live TV as the protests Tiananmen Square took a serious turn.  We watched as Saddam Hussein invaded Kuwait and our forces mobilized to protect our allies.  We learned a new term: “Shock and Awe” and as a collective, hung on every word a man named “Storm’n” Norman Schwarzkopf we could get.  We watched as we stomped across the desert and took Iraq within days.  Our military was unleashed to do what our military was built to do.   Then for some reason, we stopped just short of our goal.  We had an opportunity to finish the job right then and there and we hesitated.  For some of us, this left a hole in our collective psyche; That things were left unfinished.  We left this thorn to be dig into our sides and it did just that for years.

Soon after the first Iraqi war ended we were treated to a new Liberal.  This new liberal pandered to the disenfranchised and the ignorant youth of this country.  He was younger,, understood how the media worked and could even play the saxophone.  He was well versed, well-spoken and had a charismatic charm that could get any intern to drop their pants.  New technology was developing faster than we could adapt, there was more money than ever to go around and we bought stock in fake companies, and rode that dot-com bubble all the way to Y2K.  This new demographic of liberal… the pro-gay, politically correct, “you have to be tolerant” chatter hounds  had established a beach-head.  They started to become organized.  They had this newfangled internet thing that the current VP created (sarcasm) and could talk and chatter behind the scenes… they could pool their creative resources and gather their forces.  By targeting the youth back in the 90’s, the liberal agenda captured the demographic that is most technically savvy.  Mom and dad (at the time) knew how to use a computer… they plugged it in, hit a few keys and could make the VCR tell proper time… but for the most part, a computer to them was that thing their manager had to put their time in on or it was that stuff in the movies.  I remember the first time that my mother heard I was using this thing called the internet… and was talking to people in Sweden…  You would swear she was Dorothy seeing Oz for the first time. The concept boggled her mind.  I, being the kind of geek that I was, dove in head first to this new technology.   I have been in the IT industry for at least 20 years, watching all this.  

So as I was saying, I watched liberalism sweep my (Gen X) generation.  We were taught that “The Old Boy’s” club was evil, and that “The Man” was keeping my generation down.  I watched as we were attacked by peace loving Muslims, again and again, and our response being lobbing a few cruise missiles or drop a “smart” bomb or two.  We didn’t really show force other than killing a poor janitor or two in the middle of the night.  We were too busy rolling in the money we had by shifting our construction, manufacturing, and industry to other countries.   We had shifted most of that to China and Korea because labor was cheap.  We didn’t care.  We managed everything remotely and rolled in the money as a country.  Just as planned, my generation became the generation of excess.  We have too much time to play games, eat food, and philosophize.  We became a generation of whiners and consumers.  We no longer were a generation that produced anything.  Yeah we wrote the software that made the world go round.  We pumped up the internet.  We developed the web pages and the code that made people laugh and kept the nation distracted, but we sold our future to the Chinese because it was cheaper and easier than doing it ourselves.

We, as a country then had to face scandal.  We had to stare into the face of this media giant, who was beloved by my generation (Yes I was a liberal at the time too) and ask the question: “Did you in any way have sexual relations with that woman?”  We were floored by the scandal.  The media (who I felt still had some integrity left) latched onto this story and as the pieces fell on blue dresses, audio tapes and cigars… we got to understand a new process in our media… Infotainment.  The news, which was our life line to the truth, began to speculate.  They inserted “what ifs” as possible facts… and retooled the truth as they saw fit.  They re-branded the prosecutor in the case from a truth and justice seeker to the villain.  He, at least to the Gen-X-r’s that I was around, the bad guy… the Debbie downer…. The party killer.  He was after our beloved media giant.

Whoa…. Ok, I am going to call this part 1… and will write more later… maybe…  Honestly I have to go to the bathroom and can’t think straight.  More later. 

Well, isn’t that interesting.

March 20th, 2014

Ok, maybe things aren't that interesting to you, but they are to me.  Since my last post, I have been promoted, given a team of engineers to manage and sent on my merry way…  


I am embarrassed to say this… but… I have had some managers that I thought sucked that I probably should apologize for some of the things I did under their watch… Don't get me wrong, most of them still suck… but seeing how things on the other side of the fence works really opened my eyes.  So to all the managers I have had through the years…. that I have somehow tortured or given crap to for not making changes that I thought needed to be made: I am deeply sorry if I made your life hell.  

Now that I have cleared the air there.. That was actually a load off my mind….


I was going to write more… buuuut… I gatta go.

Post erased….

October 27th, 2013

I have become a whiney bitch.. or maybe I'm just tired…  Maybe both.

My heart today.

July 17th, 2013

I have been keeping up on the Zimmerman trial, the virdict that came out, the insuing riots and demonstrations… I look at the outing of the TWA Flight 800 coverup… all the scandals in Washington… even my own postings about The Atourney General – Eric Holder, and other random moments of me speaking out… 

I have to remind myself… God has a plan… 

God is in complete control.  

That being said, I've been listening to a surmon from Joel Osteen and it has really inspired me.

I thank God that He has me in the palm of His hand.I thank God that no weapon formed against me will ever prosper.

Hebrews 1:14 (NIV) – "Are not all angels ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation?"

I am going to stand in faith… The Lord has me… I will walk with Him… I will believe that He is my salvation… 

Hebrews 4:12 (NIV) – 12 For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.

I am going to believe that God is protecting me… I am going to believe that God is helping me… 

Philippians 4:13 (NIV) – 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.


I stand in faith that I have your favor.

Psalm 5:12 (NIV) – Surely, Lord, you bless the righteous;
    you surround them with your favor as with a shield.


So I stand in that…. and I stand with what I feel the Lord is telling me.

Son, it's time to take the first steps.  Believe son, you can do it for I am with you.

Now what that means?  I'm not sure.  But I will pray into it… I have so many things I am looking at doing…  Do I spin a wheel?  Do I guess?  Well, If I pick the wrong thing of the things I am looking at… the first steps are small on all of them… I will be safe.

Lets rock!